Scars in life

The evidence of my failure was crystal clear. I had flunked Paper 3 final exam. As the implication sank in, I went numb. Failing final paper meant that I had to withdraw from the progamme. With a pang, I took back my endless hours of study and prayers for success. I felt betrayed, I remember the words of the Psalms (37:25)

I am old now, I have lived a long time, but I never seen good people abandoned bt the Lord or their children begging fo food.

..it seemed to mock me. I had done the right thing by not cheating but hadn't I been forsaken. My failure seemed to mark me as someone who was unable to balance her academic,social and spiritual activities. I was angry at God for His effectiveness and lack of concern. I questioned a purpose of prayer... I hang unto God during this terrible moment for one simple reason....I had nowhere to turn since i held on Him. I've been trying so hard during the moment before the final exam, praying day and night for His guidance but still I misfortune.

It was a terrible moment for me, seing the others attending their connvocation while 13 of us left behind for extended semester. Its a real pain (plus more pain) when the other friends call me, telling that they will posted as a Staff Nurse soon...I was thinking why do I left behind for the worst mistake that i ever did in my life?? Will there something better in my future life? I started to questioning God's miracle....

I gave up my spirit, faith and trust...i was lost...

In the midst of my thoughts on how miserable i was, a bright light shone upon me.. I saw one person in my mind...my dearly God the Father.I am still walking in my faith and I am not alone. God has never failed me..and He has promise he never will...

Like a verse in a song 'would the Lord ever leave you? would the Lord forsake His love? you'll will run never tired, for the Lord will be your strength...'

The saying every cloud has a silver lining is used so often there's got to be some truth in it. Its about making a negative situation positive. There is no failure, only feedback.... Ironically, things can happen again but maybe for different reasons.

The Lord is near to those who are discouraged, He saves those who have lost all hope (psalms 34:18)